thought back to my life right before all of this had happened. It had been a good life. I'd had friends, an interesting job with a vibrant company, and was on a career path I believed would lead to success. When I thought about it, though, compared to the craziness and intensity of my life now it just seemed so normal and conventional. So...vanilla.

If I could somehow step out of this closet and go back to that life as if none of this had ever happened, would I do it? The more I thought about it the more I realized that I wouldn't. The past two months had unlocked cravings and desires within me that I'd barely known existed. It would be impossible for me now to go back to that life, at least not until I'd fully explored those desires. The future that Barbara described for me should have horrified me but for some reason I found it terribly exciting. Everything, that is, except remaining indefinitely as Barbara's virtual slave until she decided to release me.